Friday, April 06, 2007

I was gonna say that today marked the last full week of school,. but tomorrow is a day off, so I guess I missed that boat last week.
Today was my last undergraduate academic(or not so much) class. I should say last class as an undergrad... I may well have to play catchup with undergrad electromusic courses.
Also, my last 9am piano lesson. I tried to explain to my teacher that after my degree I shan't touch repertoire for a while, and asked him for advice on how to work on just technique. Instead, he pooh poohed the concept and reminded me that it is HOW I practice (and not WHAT I practice) that prevents me from being at the level that I should be at. In conclusion, I am very well ready to not take another piano lesson for a long long time.
Anyway, only one more lesson and one more jury before I am officially no longer a piano student.
I almost feel bad about being this excited about ending my career as a piano student, but I don't.

I talked to a different teacher, a piano goddess as the school today about her thoughts on my dance/improv section. If I weren't so bitter, she would have convinced me to stick with piano..... She commented that the parts of it where we were completely open in our communication were exhilerating and she wanted the whole time to be like it. More importantly, she made it clear that I am capable of reaching that level of performance communication and I should. She did constructively criticize that there were points at which it seemed like I was merely accompanying the dancer; which was in line with why I felt that I didn't perform my best with that dance element. Nevertheless, she was entirely supportive and made me excited about my future as a musician, and at some point as a pianist. She actually told me that she was proud of me for doing this - and I couldn't even come close to telling her how much that meant to me to hear.
Certainly not here, but sometime soon, I need to just vent to someone, or a teddy bear about some things concerning myself as a pianist. I've found that I've been biting my tongue far too much when I try and talk about anything related to it. As a result, I've painted quite a few incomplete pictures of my current state of emotional/pianistic wellbeing.

Nevertheless, I am filled with excitement about the things to come and the changes around the corner.

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