Looking at my list of recent calls on my cell phone, I realize that the overwhelming majority of incoming calls are from either work, my parents, or wrong numbers. A friend of mine did call tonight, but oh ya, they were looking to get ahold of my sister, not me.
This is not new news, nor it is surprising, I am well aware that I rarely get calls of a social nature.
Anyway, at what point are you supposed to stop calling people? With a couple friends lately,I've been making the attempt to get in touch, and it seems like I'm just wasting energy. I'm left with the feeling that I am putting to much effort into chasing after friends who probably don't actually want anything to do with me. The bad part is that I know I'm not ready to stop trying. It's quite possible that if I didn't make any more effort, I could make it this whole month without any contact outside of my parents.
I saw a tv show the other day and there was this character who was all excited for his second date with this chick and he's talking to everyone about it and then when he can't get ahold of the girl, he ends up going over to her place and having the landlord open her appartment because he's worried that somethings wrong.... when they open the door, she's there and replies to his concern with "I just thought you could take a hint".
how much longer am I going to be the pathetic guy who doesn't actually realize that noone wants to be his friend.

In conclusion, I was ditched thrice in one night - well, I had plans with one friend, who I can't get ahold of, and then both my sister and the other friend who was looking for her were supposed to call me when they had made plans.


Anyway, on to better topics, I have a half-jury tomorrow and I'm pretty prepared for it. It will go fine, and more than anything, I'm excited because after it's done I will be able to start working on other repertoire again. This probably wont be such a good sounding thing as of tomorrow evening, because it's been a month since I've touched any of the other stuff, and longer since I've worked on some of it... .so it will be pretty shit-tacular, waiting for me to relearn it!!
Why did I say tomorrow night... I won't touch piano tomorrow after my jury, it's my dad's retirement tomorrow night, so that will be my evening... unless I go practice after dropping off my grand-dad and great aunt.
Hmmm, what else, oh, tonight was dinner with my family, including my sister and aunt from BC. They both flew in today for Dad's retirement. We went to one of our regular restaurants that we go to. It was nice, and entertaining as my sister had been drinking since 3 in the afternoon.. she was tanked!
I just realized that one of profs on my Jury tomorrow is not going to be back next term because she's going on sabatical, therefore I will probably not see her again before I leave... possibly ever. Not that we are particularly close, but I like to have closure with profs and whatnot... I will have to remember to say goodbye tomorrow.
but for now.. goodbye tonight!