I have an appointment with a dietician and Diabetes Nurse Educator. Before the appt. I was supposed to keep track of :
-everything I eat
-the carb count of everything I eat
-blood sugars relating to those
I really couldn't have worse days to show them. For example... last night I was out until 3 am at the Opera Workshop party, it was great, but the problem was that my Lantus shot ran out at midnight ish, so my sugars shot up, I was taking fast acting insulin to compensate, but it wasn't good. When I got home, I took my shot and more fast actuing to compensate for the elevated sugars.
I calculated right,m because when I woke up, I had a very good number, normally I'm smart and take insulin once I wake up because if not, the sugars go up, but I felt my sugar waslow enough, so I went back to bed til 3 pm... then they were high again, i took insulin to compensate, btu no good... they stayed high all afternoon, and until dinner, at dinner I took another dose to compensate as well as my dose for dinner. Anyway, i checked 2 hours after dinner and my sugars were at ideal range.. but theres still another few hours of insulin kicking around inside me, so I've been eating candies and hotchocolate here and there to keep my sugars from going low... and I need to do that until about midnight when the insulin will finally run out!
GAH BASTARDS!

Anyway, there will be lots for them to lecture me about tomorrow. The good thing is I've learned a lot about stuff recently,. so I have lots of questions for thema bout carb counting and dose timing and all that jazz.

I'll post about how it goes tomorrow. Anyway, I won't be able to make it for my one class tomorrow, and no class tuesday, so no school until wenesday. On the good side fo that, I can get lots of practiicng and writing done.
I managed to practice about 4 or even 5, ya closer to 5 hours this afternoon/evening. The fugue is all good now, could be faster, but at least it's good to be played. Other movements are getting much better. The second Passepied, the tricky little one is ready to go too.. which is nice, the first passepied is still buggering about, but I havea few more days. So, I know it will be a go; I can play the entire Bach for my lesson on thursday. I need to also force myself to finish learning the Beethoven and speed up the Liszt a lot. If I am to stay "on schedule" I have only a week after this lesson to have my whole recital up to tempo....
anyway, it's a theory....

It's a good thing I had practiced for at least an hour yesterday morning/afternoon...
The plan last night was to go to the GroudSwell concert and then drop a composition friend off at her house on my way to practicing at the school. Unfortunately, it was 10:30 before we even left the concert... It was a very entertaining and enjoyable concert, but let's just say the scheduling/timing was not a tightly run ship.
Anyway, long story short: I got to the school and there were no cars in the parking lot that I recognized(there were all of 2 cars there) and no-one answered the F of M lounge phone, and I didn't feel like going to the security office in the cold, so I just went home and got a little bit of composition done.
Now, I'm at the point where I'm starting to input the sketch into my notation software. This involves decisions as to which voice is going to sing the motives that are unassigned in the score. I'm off to a good start, and I have a feeling that it will go quicker than I feared it would. The main thing is that I need to do that work as soon as I can possibly do it, so I can get to the finessing of the piece and not be in a rush.
I am officially reminding myself that I need to shift to the schedule of practicing during the daytime and composing during the evening/night. This way will save me gas money and transport time that would be necessary to practice late in the evening. Composing is quiet enough that I can do it as late as I want without bothering other people.
I fared quite well on practice room sign-ups. I got the prime time, and a few days I managed to use my 2 hours on either side of the recital time, meaning that if there is no recital, I have the room to myself for 3 solid hours! (but that's just 2 days a week) Other days, I made sure to find appropriate times, but ya, the good thing is that I know I have a room to practice in if I go to the school at those times. ie. I actually have a reason and motivation to go to school!
Tomorrow is Sunday, and my plan is to make best use of my home for practicing during the day. Everything in Bach needs to become much faster. The other day, I made good progress on the first movement's fugue, as long as that is presentable, I will be able to run the whole thing for David at my lesson. Then we will be able to get a vague idea of the time the piece will take, guesstimating for the non-up-to-tempo performance...

Tonight is the annual Opera Workshop performance, I'm very excited to see my friends performing together for the last time, well, at least the last time I will see them perform together. Also, is the annual afterparty chez Davey! He's had them I think 3 out of the 4 years, maybe even all 4, but they are always well put together and they serve as a great benchmark for looking back at my time in university. I don't even think I'm planning to drink, but we'll see later on. I'm not going to be driving, so there's nothing really holding me back. I have to figure out a way home, once again, we'll have to wait to see later on...

Piano lesson - Not great, not bad. Like I knew, things didn't sound good, but he thinks I have a good sense of how the Bach pieces should go, but they were too slow to really tell. My goal is to have the entire suite at a suitable tempo next week so I can play them and they'll sound like something... that will at least take up half an hour of my lesson, probably more if they aren't up to tempo.
The Beethoven, I played the one page and he said it was to slow to even make any comment on it, but reminded me to be consistent in the staccatos.

Composition lesson went well. He was happy with the detail of my 'sketch'of the piece.... he said I have everything there except for the piece itself.
He laughed openly at my terrible poetry...which is very funny because it is so horrible.. that is the point. The poetry/rhyme is to introduce the chocolate chip cookie song:

On a cool summer's afternoon,
Dad's outside a rakin',
When mommma ties her apron on,
you know that she'll be bakin'.

She searches through a pile
of her fav'rite recipe bookies,
And then she finds the perfect one;
For chocolate chip cookies.

-Michael Park


I know, I should really get awards for my stellar poetic nature! haha I'm especially proud of how I rhymed cookies with book-ies!
Anyway, I'm starting now to notate the piece on the computer... that means I'm going to have to make some very finikky and precise decisions about how I want the piece to be.

I also started printing out the stuff I'm going to need to get bound for my portfolios , and started to get things in line for the remaining applications I have:Western and U of M. I also have to get the portfolios ready for those two and for UBC.
Like I saidin the last post, this is going to be a hellish month with the paperwork as well as learning piano music and getting things up to tempo.

Tomorrow is the last day of my playing for the modern dance classes. Apparently it's a fairly big deal that I was called to accompany these morning classes, I guess they don't ask just anyone. I wonder who has been putting in the good word for me... Nevertheless, I'm greatful to have gotten this opportunity, and I'm also very happy to have made a good first impression.

Anyway, I should get to sleep soon.

First off, whenever I try and type my name fast it comes out
-Michae; Oark
Damn typing... also when I sign my signature, I leave out the r in Park... sometimes I add it in, sometimes I just leave it... I wonder if this says something about underlying psychological defects that I have, hmm, oh well!

Next on the list:
I had tried to learn 270 bars or something... eek, well, I tried:
In the morning, I stayed on schedule, when I got to the school, I locked myself in a practice room and I worked on Bach. Success, I learned the remaining 90 measures of the French Overture!! Now, it's just a matter of adding metronome markings as we go! There is something so rewarding about knowing that I am capable of playing every measure of that piece, even if some measures are significantly slower than they should be.

Beethoven, well, I knocked quite a few bars off, but in the end, I failed. On the bright side, one whole page of the fugue is learned. Bad news, even though learned, it's drudgingly slow.

I honestly don't know how my lesson will go tomorrow, I don't think it would be beneficial to play through the entirety of things... I would prefer to use it as a guided practice session, but that's kind of a lot of ask of my teacher.
My teacher's reaction is what i can't predict, either he'll be very happy with the progress and bold step I took in learning the rest of these parts, or he'll see it as too little too late. I also see both sides of the coin.
At this point, I am glad, I feel that I'm on a good road to my recital prep.

What frightens me is that I just realized that I have three applications due at about the same time, when I thought some of them were due in Feb, it turns out they are due Feb 1'st and the other is on Jan 31'st.. ARGH!
I haven't even filled out the applications for Western or U of M.... I need to do that FAST!
I also need to print out three copies of this bastard portfolio, and then theres a CV i have to do, and also more letters of intent or whatnot... gah.
This is goingto be the month from hell, nevertheless, Reading week will not be far behind that, and I will NEEEED it. oooh, wedding in Vegas! yay!

Officially Home

I spent very little time at home today because of excessive running around, but I'm moved back in now. I must admit it is very nice to be able to use the internet and my mouse together at the same time again!!!
Practice tonight was very very productive, only Bach. I learned new things - the first halves of the passepied II and the Echo. I also pushed some tempo notches up in some key places, AND I finally got around to revisiting the Ouverture.. the massive 10 minute movement that has a giant fugue... Unfortunately, it won't be ready for thursday unless I ignore other things.
It's not good - I know that this is going to be a bad lesson: not enough done, and other things are slipping.
I had really wanted to have the Liszt ready for this lesson, but things arent so hbappy there... I learned 3 more pages which I hadn't previously touched, but that hardly makes up for the months since I worked on some of the other pages. At this moment, it just seems like I have too large a mountain to climb before thursday. The problem is that if I focus on doing things that will make my lesson go better, I'm not benefitting myself on the whole.
In the Bach alone, there are still 90 bars that I need to learn at the slowest tempo possible.... THEN I can start pushing it up...
The Liszt is getting there thanks to the other night's harcore work with learning those 3 pages, but parts I was supposed to work my ass off on long ago, eeep.I need to work my ass off on them now.... funny how things don't change with time...
The Beethoven- well the firts movement is still shitty due to leaving it alone... the middle two are good, but the march needs a lot more speed, BUT atleast I can achieve that from the state i'm currently in.. just needs the time and repetition.
The final movement, however... 170 measures to learn yet.. nevermind getting them up to tempo.

Anyway, tomorrow is a new day, a day of efficiency... who thinks I can learn 260 bars in a day...... any takers!??

Heres the plan, I work til 11am tomorrow, then I'll bus to the school and practice straight through until class at 2:30. I'll see how much I've accomplished by then, and then decide if I deserve to come home...I might stay and practice all evening, with a dinner break perhaps... but only if I've been good. I'll set myself a goal... no supper until I've at least learned the remainder of the Bach. no, wait, no class until I've learned the Bach, after that, no supper until I've learned at least 80 bars of the fugue.. maybe 104, might as well learn the whole fugue... then that leaves the fed Michael only 67 more bars of the piece.
I TOTALLY think this is feasible, don't you?

YEEE HAW!!!!!!!!!!

Thoughts on a month nearing its end

Today is my last night condo-sitting for Binky.
I took a fair chunk of my stuff to my house yestereve just to lighten the load for tomorrow.
I enjoyed living on my own for this month, but I realized that I'm not as much a loner as I thought I was (or wanted to be). I found it more difficult to be productive in Jade's appartment by myself. For some reason it's easier at the school, even if I know there's noone else there. And for all intents and purposes, practice rooms are isolated, so I don't really have an excuse, but ya, that's just the way things are.

In other news, I played for the professional company this morning and I don't think it could reasonably have gone better. After the first exercise, the teacher pointed out how lucky they were to have me there because I outlined the phrases so clearly. She gave out a few compliments to me during the class, and I ended up feeling like I was back in that awkward stage of growing up:
-the stage where you long so much to feel validated, so when you actually are, you overcompensate by pretending not to care-
I wasn't so bad as to ignore the comments, but I definately had to surpress that smile from ear to ear that I wanted to give out.
The class was also beautiful even just in the exercises themselves. These were all professional dancers who had spent the years in training building the movements and technique.
Anyway, the class was refreshing and an entirely positive experience.

So, I got a bit done on the composition last night, and I now have a lesson booked for thursday. It's later than I wanted to leave it, but I really can't be so picky.
I will be working every morning this week except for my lesson day on thursday. The contemporary dance company in town called and asked me to play for company classes this week. I am excited because this is a great opportunity. For as long as I've worked for the Ballet, people always have thought that I played for the actual ballerinas, and then they would mask the dissappointment when I told them I only played for children and students. For once, I will be playing for professional dancers. The work itself will not be any different, but the context will be. In a way, it's more intimidating... much more actually... and add to the situation that this will be the first time that the artistic director will actually be hearing me play, it's like an audition.
Anyway, I'm not going to think too much about it. Tonight Im going to practice at the school, I need to at least touch the Liszt, as I haven't in such a long time...hmm, maybe I should cancel my lesson and work thursday... but that would just be avoiding the situation.
I will also do some practice improv in the modern style tonight. I'll force myself to do different phrase structures... thats one of the hard things for me.. to play with phrases other than 8's.
So ya, enough talk, off I go!

I'll be sure to post about how tomorrow goes...
oh ya, and I'm only living at Binky's for 2 more days... I'm moving back home on tuesday. I'm going to miss my new cat friend.

So, I went to the casino with my sister and parents last night. Heather and I played the blackjacktable to practice up for Vegas! I did well and won a bunch of blackjacks right when I sat down. 3 in the first 8 hands! I went to the casino with nothing and left with 45 bucks... mind you my mother and sister both gave me 20 bucks to gamble with.. the moral is: it pays to be a poor student!
The funny thing was that there was the same cranky man at my table as was there when I went last time with Chris and Jason in the summer. He's still as cranky as ever, and he was lecturing me nonstop about the mistakes I was making by not playing according to standard technique or whatnot. Bastards.. there was also a lady making comments about how I was stupid.
They almost succeeded at ruining my fun, but of course they wouldn't actually be able to do that.... Anyway, I played for longer than anyone else in my family and I only actually put 20$ on the table, from there I was just playing off of winnings and that original money.
I'm gonna go back to the casino probably once more before I go to Vegas so that I can brush up on my (apparent lack of)skills.
Today was back to ballet day. Long days always feel longer after a holiday.
I think I'm going to practice piano tonight for a bit, after 6 or whatever hours of playing today, I don't think I will be able to physically practice for a long time, but I should aim to get a bunch accomplished.

Also, I can't get a comp lesson until thursday. It's a little distressing considering how little time I have to finish this piece, but I guess it gives me more time to get as much done as I can on my own. In theory, the more I have done on my own, the more I will get out of a lesson...

tought first day back

haha, not really, but I like complaining.
The bad part was the 9am lesson. In order to make it more tolerable, Chris and I went for back to school breakfast at 7:30 at the pancake house! yippee!
it was delicious, BUT pancakes fill me up soooo much and make me feel overfull the whole day, especially when I had them also for lunch...
Lesson went pretty well. David was understanding about the lack of practice time because of the building being locked. He was happy with the work I had done on the Bach and the Beethoven, and he mentioned that he wants my entire recital learned at tempo with the book by the end of the month... at least that gives me something to aim for.
There is still a lot of the Bach that I have yet to learn.. never mind get to tempo. Anyway, I have soo much time to devote to practicing now.. no more class on monday and wednesday, I have to change my composition lesson day to not-monday, that way I don't have class at all that day... but I do need to go to recitals, so maybe it would be best to keep it that way for now...give me some motivation to actually come to school.
My actual class today bored me to tears. The course, though, will have a fair bit of work this term... eep. Oh well, I can managae with only one course that requires homework.
Cantata was cancelled today and next week, always a good way to start off the year.
It was good to be back. I'm excited to get back into the swing of things soon enough!

Mmm, New Year's Day Dinner = yummy
also good is coming to St James while my parents were out and about today to practice. I also practiced for another hour and a half after dinner. I did o.k. with being efficient and productive with my time. I won't lie and say that I was good, but I revisited the Beethoven movements that I had been ignoring. They're not in great condition, but they're also not in terrible shape.

Now, I'm just waiting for my laundry to dry.
I'm listening to the slow movment of Beethoven's Archduke Trio. On David's advice, I've been listening to a fair bit of Beethoven's music ca op.100 to try and understand the slow movement of the sonata I'm playing. It's very slow and short and it's actually challenging my musicality.
Go here to read quite a good write up on the sonata itself. If you don't want to go, here's a short excerpt that I think describes the challenges ahead of me:
"The work’s wonderfully romantic opening movement has attracted many a would-be student but, time and again, the ensuing difficulties, both technical and musical, have deterred all but the most stout-hearted. To this day, it is regarded as one of the least accessible of Beethoven’s piano sonatas."
I am really enjoying learning the piece because of the challenges. Usually, my only challenges lie in the technical elements of pieces that I'm learning. Its wonderful to actually have to do something to understand/portray the musical and expressive elements of a piece.
Anyway, I won't blab on too much.
Tomorrow is my last day of not doing much. On wednesday the school is opened again and I will have to do lots of practicing that day as well as I have to take my scores to be bound for the UAlberta application.
Oh, when I get home tonight, I will have to do some serious work on the choral piece. I did have one day where I made a lot of progress, but that was not enough. I need more more more!

Happy New Year!

Overall it was a delightful evening. Hats off to David for hosting a very nice evening.
Food was good and the company was good!
Arrival was less than perfect... Finding the house on the end of the street, I needed to turn around to be parked the right way... I got stuck in the middle of the intersection. A few people tried to help me, but I said I was having fun, so they shouldn't worry. I ended up deciding that the only option was to park accross the street from his house... which made sense except for the fact that it was a fairly lofty snowbank. I backed up to get a running start, and plunged myself nicely into the snowbank - thinking it was logical that if I could get in easily, I should also be able to get out easily.
FastForward 7 hoursish to departure time, and we disprove that naieve little theory.
Hats off also to Chris for pushing me out and having patience. I had fun getting out of the snowbank, but I wasn't the one out pushing in the snow... THANK YOU SUNSHINE!
Touques off to Mother Nature for being pleasant temperature lately, although she went a little overboard with the snow.
It was funny earlier today to see the end of what must have been a rushed/frustrating attempt to budge someone's car. He has half in an intersection causing some fuss. There were a few people trying to push, unsuccesfully. In the end, there was a truck behind and he used his bumper to push the car into the intersection and into motion. Unfortunately it didn't look/sound like a damage free assistance, but people do what they have to do. It seems that fender-benders are commonplace in Winnipeg in the winter. It's silly that bumpers are made so finniky these days. Yes, they're safer in the smaller amount of cases where more is at risk (high speed collisions) but the majority of their use is in protecting from minor bumps and scrapes to the body of the car... it's frustrating when pulling a little to far forward or backwards can result in you having to replace a whole bumper at ca.1000$ish. I guess you can't put a price on the value of a life that can be saved... BUT you can put a large profit margin on the amount that autobody places yank in over the winter slippy-slidy season!
Anyway, it's a new year and it should be a good one.
Yuck to the fact that I only have three more days before school starts up again.. pretty much in full motion right away. I seem to recall my teacher saying that a recital should be prepared 2 months before the recital date... well that would be in just over three weeks from now.. so that's not looking too promising, but maybe if I set that as my goal, that little failure won't be so dissapointing, and it will prepare me better for a much more reasonable goal of one month before...
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!

Last Day of the Year

Tonight is a night of celebration.
Another year gone by.
In the new month, everyone in the provice of Manitoba will be heading to their local autopac retailer to renew their driver's license. It seems kind of ridiculous to have EVERYONE renew at the same time, seems like it would be a nightmare for the people doing the paperwork, but I guess that's their perogative. I think it's silly. I prefer to think that they think of me every year on my birthday and send me a birthday card in the form of a license renewal form.

I hope Binky's car will move today. When I parked it last night, it was not happy with the snow and it's a pretty pitiful car in the snow, so I gave up on parking properley. I should really move the car soon. I have to go to the pharmacy and get stuff for a potluck salad.

Looking back on this year, what do I see?
It's been a year of monumental changes in my plans for life and direction and whatnot. Sure, it could be a year of transition. Now I feel that I am firmly footed on the road to becoming a composer, whereas the year before, I was still under delusions of being a pianist by profession. Not to say that was wrong, as I will still most likely make my money at a piano...
In terms of physical things, I see all the changes happeneing around me, parents retiring, sister getting married, friends moving away... It's excitign and inspiring to play some part in those people's changes.

Mumbly Mumbly, Im gonna stop talking so I can do the things I need to do today.

Well, I'm lucky that things worked out as well as they did for this month. I have discovered and made use of the 3 specific places where I can sit in order to make use of the wireless network available from Jade's appartment. They fact that they are not the most comfortable of places encourages me to use the internet less often; which is a good thing!
If I wasn't able to get wireless here, I would be stuck with dialup for the entire time. The university is in lockdown for all of this break from before xmas until the 3rd or 4th of January. I can't even get into the music building to practice piano. Luckily, I've been hampster sitting for Chris, and he has a piano that I've used a few times to practice. Unfortunately this is not enough. I can't practice for long periods of time on his piano, and I haven't gotten done anywhere near the amount of productivity in practicing that I had intended on doing over the break. Argh! It's an odd feeling to have; to want to be productive, but not really have the tools necessary to be productive.
I called the security office to find out just how locked the music building is... She said that they haven't let anyone in the building over the break. Only key holders are able to get in. I don't know if it's been like this other years, as I've always practiced at home on xmas break.
Anyway, it's frustrating to not have unlimited access to a piano. BUT, I've been able to make good use of the time I've had. I have the exposition of the Beethoven final movement learned as well as other random parts of the movement. I have also learned a few more movements of the Bach-French Overture. Unfortunately, I've been ignoring the Liszt, and all the other movements I had learned early on... well those are not in such great shape... Once I have better access to practice space, I'll be able to get things underhand again... unfortunately, my lesson is on the first day back to classes, only a day after the school reopens. Nevertheless, I still have a bit of time before then, so I'll make sure I have enough stuff ready for a good first lesson back!
I tried to grocery shop today... I only needed a few things, but I ended up spending far more than I should have... oh well, it was my PCPoints money! And I still have 15$ worth! In the end, I have lots of deliciousness to show for my grocery experience... I really don't think I would have strayed from my original budget had it been actual money I was spending, but it's still a valuable learning lesson. Seeing how my finances probably won't be good next year, I need to start learning those lessons soon.

I ended up going to my house to print out the recipe for chocolate chip cookies using my new flash card. Everything worked out for the best!
I spent most of the day working on the composition and I actually got a fair bit done. I had been trying to write out the structure of the piece on regular paper, but I wasn't able to imagine how it woul dbe in musical time. What I changed was that I started to write it out on manuscript paper. It's helped put things in perspective. It also forced me to make some decisions about specifics that I hadn't needed to specify when it was just in my head or on the regular paper.
It also points out some of the other questions that I will have to answer as I continue. I'm excited as it's starting to come together. I've been running some of the things through the choral synthesizer in my head, and they sound pretty cool.
Nevertheless, I haven't actually progressed further in the structure of the piece, but it's coming along, and I think now I will beable to be more productive when I sit down to work at it in the future... let's hope that I'm over that pesky writer's block thingy...

In other news, I just finished watching Rain Man in french. I have to say it is one of the finest movies ever made. Incredibly touching and fine acting! Funny and serious all at the same time, WUNDERBAR!!!!!!

I actually went out into the Boxing Day Blitz and bought myself a FlashDrive. It holds 2 gigglebytes and can plug into any USB device... or so I thought...
The computer needs to be relatively new to be used as a plug and play type device... as in Binky's ghetto Windows 98 desktop won't recognize it... and I can't connect my laptop to her printer... argh. Oh well, I have the file I want printed and I can now carry it around my pocket cause this thingy is so small. Like, the size of a key. I'll print it when I am next around a non-stone-aged computer... pachaw.

I fed a hampster today, his name is Leroy.
I have permission from both the owner of the hampster as well as the cat to put the hampster in his ball so that the cat can chase him around because it would be funny...
I'm wrestling with whether or not it is morally wrong: I have concluded that it would be wrong to do it for solely my enjoyment... BUT if I could share that joy with someone else, it would be less wrong. If anyone out there can make videos on their phone or camera so that I can put it on my computer, let me know and we can have a fun time!

In other news, my gum surgery areas have healed very nicely; the second side nicer than the first. Nevertheless, there are still bastard stitches in the left side, making brushing and flossing a little uncomfortable... I have to wait til the 9th of Jan to see the surgeon for followup.. if they haven't dissolved/fallen out on their own by then, he will not have a happy camper on his hands.... most likely, I will be on his chair... HAHAHA!

Today on TVtropolis, it was the Married with Children Marathon! I can not express how much happiness this has brought me. Also, my mother bought me the first season of Arrested Development today. Likewise, happy.

BAH, still, little/minimal productivity has been achieved on the choral piece. I don't know what the problem is. I will continue to try. I hate stagnancy and procrastination... yet they come so naturally to me!
I think that is all for the moment.

Merry Christmas!

The weather is just beautiful out!
I stayed up til 4:45 am last night knitting thongs for fun friend Fi. And also one for her friend Erin who also made a special request yesterday. They turned out pretty damned good. I get better each time I make them... I now consider myself the world's best thong knitter.
Anyway, Tonight is dinner with momma and poppa.
Last night was the annual Christmas Eve get-together at Grandpa and Aunt Jean's. It was rather enjoyable to see the young generation running around and getting all the attention. I thought out loud that that used to be myself and Heather as the two youngest of the family.. then I realized that, while I was the youngest up until 5 years ago, it was over 19 years ago that Heather and I were that age... and then I felt old. But a good kind of old, mature and priveliged to have reversed roles.
Yes, I think after dinner we might be going to see a movie... it's always amazed me that the theatres remain open on xmas day.. so I like going to take advantage of that.
Happy Holidays to everyone!

Christmas is different this year. Not in a bad or good way, just different.
I remember years ago, my sister was wanting to move to England and I had been planning on going away for music school... i guess that would have been about 4 years ago.. My mom was very upset at the idea that it was going to be our last Christmas together.... well, since then we've been able to have another 3 together, and one this year, if you count it being a week and a day early...
Anyway, I guess you can never predict how things are going to change, you just have to wait and then embrace those changes as they come about.

Today I spent the afternoon with my (soon to be) Brother in law. He was on his way to Montreal, with a 6 hour layover in Winnipeg. We went out for lunch, found him some earphones for the flight and just hung out for a bit. He's such a good guy, a welcomed addition to our family.

Frustrating - I have some kind of mental block that is preventing me from being productive on this choral piece... I'm having issues even opening the book I have the ideas written in...
On another front, piano practicing has been making good progress... I have made a good chunk of development on the last movement of the Beethoven, and I have a complete pair of dances from the Bach - the Gavottes! with that and the openning... only about 8 more movements to go....
So ya, the choral piece... once I've written this post, I'm going to forcibly opent he book and try and do soem work.... but ya, I'm not sure if I'm having doubts about the piece or the idea behind it or if I'm just ;azy, or if it's writer's block.... Regardless of the cause of my stagnancy, I know I don't have the luxury of sitting back and watchign the rest of this month fly by - then I would be in another rush to get this piece done by the next due date... argh!
Im looking forward to my self-imposed non-conceptual music writing experience which will be the rest of this year. I definately need to focus more on the strictly musical elements of composition. Just pure music, simply aural exploration. With these 2 most recent pieces, I've spent considerable amounts of time thinking about structure and concept of the piece before I've even thought about the application or use of notes, rhythm, phrasing....
I think I'm going to do a piece for full orchestra as a piece of absolute music. Not to say that it is going to be dry, technical music; there will still be concepts to be explored, but the scope of those concepts will not venture into the extra-musical.

Bah, now it's time to write a piece for choir... of sorts...

Go Here to watch a Wierd Al video.
I used to be obsessed with him when I was growing up.
Now he has written a song called "I love my pancreas" in Beach Boys Style, ish.
It's a little random and not his finest work, but nevertheless, it is something with which I identify.

I've sort of been inserting diabetes info for a while now... apparently the UN has recognized Diabetes as as big a threat to world health as epidemics like AIDS, Malaria, and Tuberculosis.
It's scary, but the good thing is that with this little bit of international recognition, more focus will go towards prevention and proper diabetes education in developing countries! (Yay, world!)

current mood: not angry, not sad; utterly dissapointed and bummed out

Nobody likes waking up to bad news; if you let it, it can ruin your day.
Today my dad called me and then the mail arrived so he asked if he should open and read a letter from U of M Grad studies. I said yes.

It turns out I didn't even make it past the first round for the SSHRC(17,500$ scholarship for grad studies). I'm not too surprised, while I was going through the process, the lady said she wouldn't accept it more than a few days late because she had far more applications than normal, and they always have more applications than they can put forward. As a result, mine was not one of the applications they decided to send forward to the National committee.
What the scholarship would have meant was that I would have the financial freedom to go to any university that would accept me, regardless of other scholarships.
Now it means that I will have to a) make a lot of money this summer and save it well and b) make my decision of a school to attend based a lot more on money. In the end, I might actually have to take out a loan in order to attend grad school.
Actually, I have been lucky to be finacially afloat nearing the end of my undergrad program, thanks to living at my parents and working hard during the summers.
I don't think this change will make any difference in my choice, but I'm disspointed that I won't be getting that free ride.
I now continue with the application process to the remaining schools and wait.
I'm waiting for 2 things:
1) that they think I'm even good enough to accept me into the program and
2) (doubtful) that I'm so awesome that they want to throw lots of money at me...
I'll stay realistic, this is Canada...even if they want to give me money, it will only be enough to cover tuition... I'll have to come up with my own money for living and whatnot.... geez it's almost like I'm going to have to enter the real world and be accountable for myself.... yuck!


Anyway, I'm still excited about grad school. I just wish that this was either good news, or that they waited til after the holidays to inform me.... It sucks that they make you wait for the good news, but they tell you the bad right away!

I practiced tonight... I have a feeling that the music building is actually going ot be off limits for the holiday.... so I might not get to practice much this next while.... uh oh...
David was there teaching some of his private students - I caught him before he left. I brought up the topic of needing a piece for my second half jury... while it's not a pressing concern at the moment, I need to have one picked so I won't be in a total panic when my recital is finishing up and I realize I have a whole 10 minutes of music to learn in a short while...
He suggested some things to look up and whatnot but before I left he gave me a score and a recording which he just happened to have in the office. I'm so happy he did.. I think this is the piece I want to play... it's three movements, but the first 2 comes out to exactly the amount of time I need -about 10 minutes.
The piece is minimalist-ish, but not as repetitive as a lot of minimalist music out there....I'm not even sure I would classify it as minimalism... but it has a very static quality to it even amongst a lot of notes. Repetitive hand positions mean that it is not going to be a killer to learn, which is always a plus. Most importantly, it is gorgeous and just a tad heartwrenching (in a good way). A lot of the motives are things that I have used in some of my compositions as well as improvisation. That's not a big deal or motivation in itself, BUT it means that it will lie comfortably in my hands, and it will be musically comfortable in my head as well.
The moral of the story is that I think I've fallen in love already!

In other news, the condo is cold... it had been really hot/warm every time I came home, so I turned the heat down a teensybit, but I couldn't tell a difference, so I put it down quite a bit. It was perfect earlier this evening, but now that it's later in the evening and night time is usually colder, I am feeling a bit chilly.

I have lots of bananas, and they're all ripe.. I have a feeling they will be overripe before I get them eaten... I might have to take them to mom for baking purposes... ooh that couldbe good for Christmas day!!! Maybe Oscar wants to make a trip to St James on Xmas day... that would save me having to drive back and forth an extra time...
anyway, back to the bananas, it was kinda awkward.. I was leaving a message for Chris and I saw a banana sitting in front of me on the piano tonight and my thought process was actually:
'I have lots of those bananas at Binky's... they're getting ripe'... 'Chris lives close'...maybe he would like to help eat bananas... I should make the offer'..
So, on his voice mail I rambled about having lots of bananas, so if he had a craving for banana, he should call me..... but I started to laugh at how phallic the invitation could seem.

And, I'll point out how ridiculous I am by wasting that much of my blog space on bananas...
I bought small to medium sized bananas.. why?! I had the chance to get big bananas... actually they didn't have big banans at the store, and all of the bananananananas were fairly ripe anyway.... I should have just bought fewer bananas...
oh well.
Open invitation to all who enjoy bananas.... come here and I shall share.

All seems to be going well right now.
I did super well on my jury and I'm starting to make progress on the choral piece-ish.
I took my grandfather and great aunt for lunch today, it was nice to spend some time with them.
I got offered and accepted a TA-ing position for the second part of the 20'th Century Music course. That is wonderful A) it means a little extra money in the pocket and
2) I can now write that I will have some acdemic teaching/marking experience ... something that would have been better if I had it for grad school applications, but oh well.

Something I have been looking into lately is real-time or Continuous Glucose Monitoring. They have systems out that can test your blood for you over 200 hundred times a day and give you an amazing view of how your sugars react throughout the day. The problem is that this technology is extremely expensive. At present I am looking into seeing if I can get a trial use of the machine or something like that...
Gah, it's so frustrating for there to be technology available that I can't use, even though I know that it could greatly benefit my control.....
BUT, I bite my tongue... I have been doing a fair bit of reading lately on the state of diabetes globally. In developing countries, life expectancy with diabetes can be as little as 1 year, because the insulin and testing supplies are not even available in the most primative forms. This fills me with guilt for being in a have position in life, but in the positive, the most logical way of thinking of it is that, it is my duty and responsability to take the best care of mysef possible simply because great resources are available to me.
I need to head to my house tonight so that I can have a blank cheque ready to give to the school for this TA position. Who knows what trouble I will get into in St James...

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Yay!
So, my sister won't be here for actual xmas, so we celebrated today.
We had brunch and stockings in the morning, then Heather and I went out so she could finish her xmas shopping... conveniently, I used this opportunity to both start and finish my shopping.
We were back by 6pm for dinner, and then we opened presents, which we weren't planning on actually doing today, but it seemed to make sense... that way we didn't have to really wrap everything... ok, I didn't wrap all my presents...
It was very nice. Theres still some stuff between my parents and me that we'll take care of on xmas day, but it was nice to celebrate some stuff together as a family today. I'm wearing one of the new sweaters I got today, very nice...
Anyway, Heather leaves tomorrow morning, so I'm going to hang out with her and Fi tonight. Tomorrow, I'll see if my Jury marks are ready, and I should also find out for sure if they are on break yet... other than that, I realized that the month is half over already... even more!! so I need to practice lots and get a healthy start on this choral piece due in January...
So ya, enough for tonight, later!

Happy last Ballet Saturday of 2006!

YAY!
I'm sitting at the twist, trying to eat my veggie burger with only half a mouth, in a fair bit of discomfort... I had the good sense to actually bring some Advil with me this week, so the tenderness is not bothering me as much as last week. Anyway, in theory that should be the last time I have to get that damned gum graft procedure done, and I'm glad to say that.
Hopefully, in about a weeks time, I will be feeling AOK.
I actually practiced last night at the school for a few hours. I learned a few very small snippets more of the French Overture, which is great! There are parts of that and the fourth movement of the Beethoven sonata that I haven't even touched yet, so it's my goal to have those learned at a minimal speed by the end of the break. From there, it will be just a matter of speeding them up and making sure I have the right character. I just don't like the idea of going to a lesson in second term and still not having learned my recital rep, even if it is only to some slower-than-slow tempo.
I'll be honest, there's a lot of stuff I still have to get to that minimal tempo stage of the game. David wants me to have a written out plan of attack from my first lesson in Jan up to having the recital prepared in early March. But, I need a starting point to work from.... and thats the point I mentioned earlier. I have to be able to play through the pieces at some tempo with some semblance of knowing what I am doing.
The first three Beethoven movements are acceptable and need tidying and speeding up over the break, and the Liszt, well there's some areas that need more work than others... of course. It's not yet at the point where I could play through it and make it seem like a musical entity.
In January, my dancer and I are starting with rehearsals. I had wanted to start sooner, but scheduling didn't allow for it. Now, we have found a time that will work and we are going to take advantage of that and we are both very excited to work together.
So in a heartbeat, my recital is faint at the moment, but it will hopefully get stronger with every beat.
Soon, my parents will both have retired, my mom is joining my dad in retirement as of Jan 14th or something. I am excited for them, and curious as to what kind of things they will be doing to keep busy. I assume it will be more of what they normally do on the weekends... but I don't think they can afford to do that much shopping and/or driving.
This is such a year of change for my family: Retirement times 2, my sister's wedding and I soon will be graduating and moving out and onwards with my life. Very exciting.
I am very excited that Heather and my friend, Fiona, has finally decided that she is for sure coming to Vegas for the wedding. It will be a wonderful time for partying. A couple of Heather's friends and a few of Gareth's buddies are going to be there, as well as my cousin who is about my age. This means that it's going to be a very young and hip wedding and good for partying and celebrating.
Heather said that on the night of her wedding (afetr the ceremony) all are invited to join them in a 4am blackjack toury! Late night and blackjack = MICHAEL HAPPY!
I am totally going to make millions of dollars in Vegas!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well, apparently my perceptions of my jury were not solely my own.
I just spoke withe my piano teacher, who had emailed me to congratulate me on an excellent jury. He said the other people on the panel were also impressed.
Yay me!

Dad's retirement was delightful. The food was good and the company was excellent.
It was great to hear so many people speak so highly of my father. As a family, we are all so proud of his many accomplishments. He holds the longest consecutive term on the exceutive of his union - 20-someodd years. And he also had a 29 year streak without taking a sick-day.
I got to see my great aunt Kay last night. She is 94 years old and was still walking on her own. When I told her I couldn't remember the last time I had seen her, she told me when it was, and what we did... It is always delightfully surprising to see her and how she still has all her wits about her. It was amazing to see her mingling with people and still able to recall details about everyone she talked with. Her secret... well not so much a secret, but she has a drink every night before bed.
My Grandfather won one of the silent auction prizes, of course.... as my mom says about people with good luck, which was appropriate at the race track where the dinner was held, he must have horse shoes up his butt!
The silent auction tickets were sold and all the profit went to Winnipeg Harvest, raising over $500 for my dad's favourite charity!

Anyway, it's almost time for me to take Binky's car to the autopac claim centre! then who knows what kind of fun I might have....

Wow, I was pissy last night.
It turned out my sister had gone home and passed out, thus pissing off more than just me.
This morning I got a phone call from the other friend who I had complained about last night. While I was initially pissy due to the morning thing, the sincerity of his apology was nice and I tried to convey to him that I was just in a very pissy mood the night before. I hope that came across clearly, but if not.. I really shouldn't have been such an ass on my blog.
I think I'm going to give up figuring out why I get pissy like that. I had gone out for a nice dinner with family that hadn't seen recently and it was a nice time.
Anyway, Jury went well. In fact I think it was some of the best playing I've ever done. I didn't say goodbye to the prof who is leaving, as it didn't seem appropriate within the context of the jury, although I did nearly wear a plastic tiara into the hall... She will be back to hear some of her student's recitals later this year. So hopefully I will see her then.
Lunch today with Aunt and Mom and Sister, it was nice. Tonight - Retirement Party!!!!!!

Looking at my list of recent calls on my cell phone, I realize that the overwhelming majority of incoming calls are from either work, my parents, or wrong numbers. A friend of mine did call tonight, but oh ya, they were looking to get ahold of my sister, not me.
This is not new news, nor it is surprising, I am well aware that I rarely get calls of a social nature.
Anyway, at what point are you supposed to stop calling people? With a couple friends lately,I've been making the attempt to get in touch, and it seems like I'm just wasting energy. I'm left with the feeling that I am putting to much effort into chasing after friends who probably don't actually want anything to do with me. The bad part is that I know I'm not ready to stop trying. It's quite possible that if I didn't make any more effort, I could make it this whole month without any contact outside of my parents.
I saw a tv show the other day and there was this character who was all excited for his second date with this chick and he's talking to everyone about it and then when he can't get ahold of the girl, he ends up going over to her place and having the landlord open her appartment because he's worried that somethings wrong.... when they open the door, she's there and replies to his concern with "I just thought you could take a hint".
how much longer am I going to be the pathetic guy who doesn't actually realize that noone wants to be his friend.

In conclusion, I was ditched thrice in one night - well, I had plans with one friend, who I can't get ahold of, and then both my sister and the other friend who was looking for her were supposed to call me when they had made plans.


Anyway, on to better topics, I have a half-jury tomorrow and I'm pretty prepared for it. It will go fine, and more than anything, I'm excited because after it's done I will be able to start working on other repertoire again. This probably wont be such a good sounding thing as of tomorrow evening, because it's been a month since I've touched any of the other stuff, and longer since I've worked on some of it... .so it will be pretty shit-tacular, waiting for me to relearn it!!
Why did I say tomorrow night... I won't touch piano tomorrow after my jury, it's my dad's retirement tomorrow night, so that will be my evening... unless I go practice after dropping off my grand-dad and great aunt.
Hmmm, what else, oh, tonight was dinner with my family, including my sister and aunt from BC. They both flew in today for Dad's retirement. We went to one of our regular restaurants that we go to. It was nice, and entertaining as my sister had been drinking since 3 in the afternoon.. she was tanked!
I just realized that one of profs on my Jury tomorrow is not going to be back next term because she's going on sabatical, therefore I will probably not see her again before I leave... possibly ever. Not that we are particularly close, but I like to have closure with profs and whatnot... I will have to remember to say goodbye tomorrow.
but for now.. goodbye tonight!

Enjoying my new life

My cat friend, Oliver, and I are getting along well enough. I'm worried, he hasn't shat this afternoon. Normally, I'm not one to worry about my friend's bowel situations, but Oscar has a predisposition to shitting on beds and other areas when things are out of the normal. When Jade brought him to her Dad's in Saskatchewan for our road trip this summer, he made a sport of doing his business on his bed (only twice, but there was definate malicious intent). Anyway, I'm making sure he's kept out of the bedroom as 1) she has a beautiful bed and b) I'd say that Oscar being left in his home with some random guy is out of the normal for this kitty.
Aside from that, he is a very handsome cat and his antics keep me entertained from time to time.

I had a short lesson / run through of my Haydn today. The results are that the Sonata hasn't gone to complete shit since my lesson 2 weeks ago. He had some suggestions and he was happy to say that it was in good condition. I'll fix up some of the things, and it will be stellar on thursday. Distracting - the a and b keys (bottom of the bass clef) were sticking today, and it was driving me crazy. I think I held it together rather well, considering the severity of the sticking, but it definately screwed me up quite a bit. I know realize that it must have been the reason that the guy in the lesson before me had been sitting at the other piano...
Thursday is going to be a long yest wonderful day. I have Jury at noon, and then I will be completely done with Haydn!! That evening is my dad's retirement.
Bittersweet - I can drink on these antibiotics BUT I'm a DD, driving my grandfather and great aunt. Nevertheless, I will enjoy the evening and be sober to support my father on this momentous occasion.
Also, not drinking is wonderful on the pocketbook!
So, to correct something I had previously said... I do have wireless internet here.... although it is not technically jade's nor mine... I can only get it at the very edge of the bedroom here, so not the most convenient.. but beggar's can't be choosers. I can also hook up my computer or use Jade's for dial-up if I don't feel like struggling to find the sweet spot for this connection.
Anyway, now it's time to watch tv and knit!

moving day

for those who may not know, I'm housesitting for the next month, so I will be in south St.Vital til Jan 8'th.
Today I'm driving my firend to the airport and then taking over her life for a month.
due to dial-up internet, I will have limited resources, but I guaruntee that I will make the most of it with blogging and update you on christmas holiday adventures.
At this moment, I'm running around the house trying to find all the things that I know that I'm going to forget here, but at least it's only half an hour away, so i can easily come back for anythign I left behind. Diabetic supplies are all packed and as soon as I'm done this, the computer will be put away
anyway, enough rambling..
toodles for now!

And they're off!!!

I just bound my scores for Auskultu Bonvolu and then took it and the other pieces and the audio cd and the coverpage and the Assistantship application and put them all in an expresspost envelope and sent it!!! it cost me 11$, but I think it was worth it, it will arrive at McGill before the deadline!!!
Now, I officially shift my focus to the Haydn for my half jury. It's been too long since I actually practiced it... I've played through it every couple of days to make sure it's still there.... and it's gone a bit downhill, BUT thats what the days between now and thursday are for. My mental and structural memory are secure, but my fingers sometime want to go to the wrong place ; easily fixed by repeating it properly... AKA PRACTICING!!!
All day tomorrow will be that! monday is going to be a little silly because I have to drive Binky o the airport so I can move into her place while she is in Germany for the month.. but then on, I'm super close to the university so I won't have a problem finding time to practice!

ooops, I published that a little ealry, anyway, I went to a social for dfun times tonight!
I danced a bit an d drank a bit and had a wonderful time!

we requested my theme song ; Private Dancer, by Tina Turner....
but then it was skipping so they stopped it, then I was anrgy, but then I wasn't so much angry anymore because I drank and then ate some coldcuts and bread and mustard (all combined into some kind of "sandwich form")

The moral of the story is that as the evening developed, I drank more and therefore danced more and had more good time. There were no strippers for me to dance with this time, so I had respectable dancing fun!unlike other socials at the same location...

FI and I predrank tonight and I knit whilst we did that.

Also, I got a bandaid for my cheek (it's winny the poo) so I have pooh on my face. My mouth is tender, so ouchy, but ya, the good thing is that liquor + this antibiotic = not a bad time! yaya!

i'm excited for monday, I move to my December home - housesitting for Binky, although it means less interent access, it will be fun, .. time with kitty.

OK, update on progress, I finished printing out my ensemble piece tonight, binding tomorrow and posting it in the mail tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It's going to be complete as of tomorrow afternoon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can't even explain the excitment I have for this to be in the mail!

holy schmoley, it's been too long since I had been drunk, and tonights the night to recitfy that litte porblem!

What an upsy-downy day!

I had my gum surgery today! Well, part of it... I had the worst area taken care of today and next week I will have the 2'nd worse area. The best part was that we found out the other day that the procedure was covered 90% by my dad's Blue Cross, if only we had more time... oh well. In other words, the finances of this are AOK!
The freezing itself was a little painful on the inside of the gum, but oh well. It was an awesome sound to hear him slicing open my gum... although it took much longer than I thought... The sewing up of sutures took the longest of anything. The freezing was wearing off while he was suturing up the actual graft, and I began feeling sore while I was still there.
So, he gave me T3's which I won't need to use as the bad pain and soreness is already faded. I also got an Rx for antibiotic... but it doesn't say anything about avoiding alcohol while on them... so yay! ALthough I will stay away from excess.
I TOTALLY handed in my orchestration final assignment this morning, well before the due time (almost an hour before...) that means, I'm officially done all academics for the term!!!
AND considering that Piano Ped is barely an academic course, I'm done academics for my undergrad!!! I thought about it and the only classes I have next term are Ped and Cantata on Thursdays. I have Comp seminar on Mon and Wed, but I don't get a mark for that..... Fridays I have New Music Ensemble, but that's totally not academic. It'll be great, I'll actually have the time to learn my piano music and even do some composing at the same time!
Last night I started to print out the scores for the ensemble piece, but I ran out of paper...so I bought some on my way home today and this afternoon I will finish them...
Speaking of... I HAVE A TITLE!!!!!!!!!!

"Aŭskultu, Bonvolu"

It is Esperanto for "Listen, Please". I was going to call it "Ecoutez, s'il vous plaît", but now looking back, the french is too polite, in a way. s'il vous plaît means 'if it pleases you' which lacks the directness of the Esperanto version. Both of the words in the esperanto one are in the commanding declension, which gets the idea across better! Also, Tiffy pointed out that the idea of the international language of peace matches better with individual lines which are reinterpreted by instuments who are not natural speakers of that type of line.... Amazing how adding a title to something can add a layer of depth... eh!?
All is well at the moment!
I also remembered to call and book off the evening of my dad's retirement from contemp, so I can actually attend (a minor oversight in the grand scheme of things).

ANd now to be productive!

So, I'm pretty sure I have the best piano student in the world!
Not because she practices every day for hours and then remembers everything that I tell her in lessons.... rather, she bought me liquor! Bailey's and Kahlua and Wine!! Oh what a wonderful day!

In other news, today was the last day of classes! yay! Only assignments to do now.. but I don't have to be bothered to actually go to the school for daily events! yippee!

I took my ensemble piece and the performance notes to the head of the composition department today. He looked at my piece and helped me do some editing to make the instructions clear as a bell(I hope). It was super duper! great suggestions and ya! Just some rewordings to do and then I can print it out and it will be ready!

Phew!

So, I haven't recieved any title suggestions for my ensemble piece, so I'll have make something up before i print it out and bind it....
I bound the other two pieces tonight at the ballet, so they are officially ready to go with program notes and everything. Now, all that is awaiting the submissions package is the third piece.
I took it to my composition teacher on monday. He had some really good things to say and also some helpful commentary... albeit the kind that creates more work for me. In the second movement, there was some precedent that when a figure is supposed to be repeated, you need the repeat sign before and after the little snipett... it makes sense, but I was going by the idea that you don't use it at the beginning of the piece, so I woulndt need to if there was no music directly preceding it... oh well. That took 10 minutes in photoshop, now it's done.
He suggested/demanded that I am consistent in my graphic notation.. This means that I have to devise a system that I can apply with as few changes to the score as possible... It also means figuring out how to do something new in photoshop.... uh oh.
So ya, I'm still in the same spot with this piece - trying to finish up the notation notes and program and performance notes so that everything makes sense to the performer without me being there to try and explain things.... gah!
BUT, if I make the notation on the page clearer, it simplifies what I have to write in words to explain the piece in the performance notes.
I finished my small orchestration assignment that is due tomorrow, so that means all I have left to do for school is my Final assignment and my half Jury.

Oh ya, so the plan is to have the ensembl piece COMPLETELY finished and printed by Friday/Saturday so that I can bind it myself (for free) at the ballet and then I can mail it with the other pieces on the same day after work! You have no idea how wonderful I will feel once that is out of the way!
Then I can spend the rest of the time before the 14th practicing for my Jury. THEN, the rest of xmas break will be learning recital rep and writing a choral piece for my UBC submissions!

For those who haven't noticed, this is probably the most hectic and stressful time of my university life thus far... well maybe not as bad as last year during the Music Festival/Recital week... but ya, you know what I'm getting at!

well, I was informed that I hadn't update my blog yet today, so I feel it is my responsibility to do so-such that my faithful readers will have something to read.
1) I finished my ensemble piece.... now I need to name it...something I hadn't thought about... but yes, suggestions are open. The over/underlying concept of the piece is that the most important part of performing this piece is listening to the ensemble around you. It is through this listening that decisions are made in terms of what, how and when to play the excerpts which are written on the part. One of the things that I'm excited to learn about the piece(which will only be revealed upon an ensemble's first performance of the piece) is whether the listening aspect will have an effect on how the instruments play their solo excerpt at the end of the piece. The solo excerpts are written idiomatically for each instrument, but they will have heard it many times played in different ways, it will be interesting to see if the soloists will play according to what is idiomatic to their instrument, or according to what they have heard..
Suggestions for a clever title are welcomed!
I will be working on the Performance/Notation notes to make sure that everything about the form and performance of the piece are explained clearly and concisely.

2) I went to the modern dance show last night put on by the Young Lungs Dance Exchange. It was a choreographic showcase for young choreographers in the city. It was wonderful to see such a variety of performances and presentations. It was also wonderful to see the dance/movement/choreographic styles of some of the dancers I work with or that I have jammed with. One of the things I was most excited about was seeing the dancer I will be working with for my recital doing the thing that we will be doing: musician/dancer improvisation.
I thought it was extrmely effective. I saw and felt the communication between the two of them,and I found that the simplicity of using one prop and a clever title was perfect. They called it "Selective Hearing" and the prop was an old-style telephone with an extremely long phone chord.
What I found to be very reassuring was the strong musicality of this particular dancer! There are so many aspects of that piece that I could go on for a while talking about, but I won't overdo it... Basically, they used some additive structures that I had been thinking of using as a good starting place for improv communication - this is basically when both participants are doing a repeated motive together and as time progresses, one or the other adds something to the motive and that is picked up and responded to by the other. It allows the participants as well as the audience cause-and-effect perspective of what is going on.
As with any show, there were parts that I really really liked and other parts that I liked less-so, but I was impressed overall with the effectiveness of the performances.
I encourage all of you to check out their website and keep track of what they have going on, lots of wonderful talent there!

So, I've been making silly decisions lately, or plans without consulting my full schedule... unfortunately my schedule exists in several places and none of them are comprehensive. examples are:
-making sure to book a lesson during rehearsal time for Cantata concert (problem solved)
-booking recording time at the univ. on the only night I wont have a car....

ok, those are the only 2 coming to mind.. but thats the problem, I'm not good at keeping track of resources. Tonight, I didn't have use of the car, so I had to bus. I love the bus and i don;t mind taking it to school, but I'm a little less excited about taking the bus with dirty smelly people when I'm wearing a suit to the Opera. People are also dirtier and smellier at night time. For those who take the bus, you know it's a completely different crowd of people that take the bus at night.

ANyway Opera was amusing, I thought it was a little too low-brow humour for my taste in some instances... The irony is that tonight's production was probably very accurate to the style it would have been presented in in Strauss's time (in terms of comparative historical placement).
After the Opera was over, apparently no one wanted to go out for drinks or whatnot, so I was just going to take the bus home... BUT whooosh!
I was saved by 2 of the awesomest people in the whole wide world - Jenn and Sean who graciously drove me home!
THANK YOU FRIENDS!
So, I didn't have a composition lesson today cause that time didn't work out, but having the lesson on monday means that I will have time to completely finish this ensemble piece in time to show my teacher. Then he can give me suggestions on how to make it even better!!

Names are interesting...
I've always prefered Michael to Mike, but I really don't care what people call me.
In fact I'm not insitent at all on what people call me, I'll accept anything really. Nevertheless, people always gravitate towards calling me Michael Park - full name..?!?
I don't think I've ever done anything to encourage this, but still - it's something to comes out of the woodwork.
I remember in high school, older friends from choir had an extended conversation/examination about how you can't just call me Michael, you have to use both first and last name.
Readers, I ask you this:
What is it about my names that necessitates the presence of both surname and given name?
oh well, I won't dwell on it.

Today was a good day, I'm done with assignments and the rest for one course! And the performance on wednesday marked this term's events for the New Music Ensemble. Orchestration still has 2 more assignments, which I need to get working on so I'm not in a rushat the last minute. Speaking of rushing, I'm getting close to finishing my ensemble piece. It's 5/6ths done, and I have my lesson tomorrow, he hasn't seen it since it was still in the concept piece or I had maybe written one of the excerpts... The biggest thing I need to work on is the performance notes and making sure I cover all the bases for what the players are supposed to do.

Tonight was the diabetes dinner. I learned a fair bit and got some freebies! I played love-themed music for a warm-up to the 'diabetes and sexual health' themed presentations.
I quite enjoy the group of young diabetics involved in this Maestro Project, good times.
ANyway,gnite

so, I had been working on a touque for my sister
as some of you may know, she has an abnormally small head, not that it implies anything about her intelligence... it's just that her cranial cavity is... well.... abnormally small.
Anyway, I had accidentally made the touque excessively small, so much so that it would be even too small for her head, to the point that it would be offensive to give it to her. Nevertheless, the work was not a waste, my mom has been making children's hats and scarves to give away for the christmas cheer board hampers. Now I just have to find more black yarn so I can still make a hat for part of Heather's present.....
OOH maybe I can make her and her finace matching touques.... and maybe matching wedding thongs....hmm no, I'll leave those til the wedding!
hahaha!
Anyway, today was relatively productive in terms of composition work, but I haven't touched a piano in terms of practicing since my last lesson...oopsie. I will get back on track though... Prioritizing is such a silly thing. The problem is that I'm thinking ahead to xmas break when I will have a completely new piece to write for my Jan31'st application deadline, and basically have to learn all my recital rep.... BUT, i need to put that out of my mind so that I can concentrate on perfecting Haydn for my Jury and then finshing up composing this piece. I also need to get the 3 pieces in my portfolio bound nicely so it is a pleasant looking portfolio.
We had an amazing lecture/talk/discussion at composition seminar on Monday about grad schools and grants and work options and scholarships and all the things like that we have to look forward in our careers as composers. It was good info and exciting, though I wish we had covered that before I learned the majority of it the hard way this year.
ANyway, I'm off for the evening!

So, I've set up a fileposting place on the internet for myself. I will be using it to post recordings of my pieces as they are available. Right now, the Alzheimer's Variations are available, so if you didn't get a chance to hear them at school last monday, please go there and download them or stream them, and let me know if the streaming works. I believe you can leave comments there, or feel free to leave them here or email.
Click Here!

Other than that, tonight was productive, I got a good start on an assignment due thursday, and I have gone from 1/2 finished to 2/3rds finished on my ensemble piece this weekend. Only two more instruments to compose excerpts for and I'll be finished! I also have to organize a set of sexy/love themed popular music to play for this diabetes dinner this thursday as well as start thinking/recording pieces for my dad's retirement. As per usual, lots to do!

I thought my house was bad with the small bananas, but slowly everything has been shrinking...my mom has been buying small mini-yogurts and now mini-cheese strings.... it's starting to drive me batty!

I have to work on more applications this weekend, not that they are due, but they delete unfinished applications on web-servers, which is stupid. Anyway, the McGill one is in progress, reference letters aretaken care of , and transcripts are good, so I just need to finish my portfolio and then yay! send it off in the mail.

there's no dance jam tonight, as there is a show next weekend involving a bunch of people in the group, so I will be going to that next weekend, if anyone is interested in seeing the dancer I will be having in my recital as well as the other dancers I've been improvising with, let me know!

It's been a good week.
Thursday:
-lesson went very well. He was very impressed with the improvement of the Haydn. I mentioned that I thought he completely overreacted the week before and he responded that all he has to go on was what I present to him; last week was unacceptable, and he lectured me then sent me away, when I brought it back it was in much better shape.. therefore he wasn't going to question his teaching methods. It made sense and I was ok with that.
-Piano Ped presentation went very well. I felt a little underprepared, but after the presentation she commented on how it was an extremely well-prepared and researched presentation. I'm excited to see how her reaction translates into a mark...
-Student cancelled piano lesson, so that gave me some nice downtime! yay!
-Dance class accompaniment/work went well. I got some really good compliments from the modern teacher about my choices/style of music. She told me I had a really good touch for modern class. Finally- I'd been worried about what music to play for modern cause the aesthetic is so different from Ballet. I'm also starting to feel more comfortable with understanding the movements and what kind of music suits them!
- The improvised music ensemble had it's first public performance last night, and it went over quite well! It was a lot of fun, and it feels good to be associating music with fun(something I haven't seen/felt enough of at school lately). I also performed some of the Kurtag pieces, and got some nice compliments on them.

Today, we got orchestration tests back, it was my lowest mark so far on a test in that course... only 90%.

Plans for this weekend are to make major progress on this ensemble piece... I need to finish writing the musical excerpts SOON if I'm going to have it finished in time for the application for McGill. Also practicing of course, but I really need to get this piece into the finishing touch stage of the game.

Post #301

That's right, I have posted 300 times in my blogging life! Pretty crazy!

Anyway, tomorrow is lesson day. I'm feeling pretty good about being prepared and that the Haydn will go well and my teacher will say it's alright to play for my Jury, but I'm having issues not being bitter about some of the things that were said last week. I'm going to be unimpressed if he tries to make a big deal out of the improvement, because it wasn't that bad to begin with, I simply made a choice to prioritize differently than he would prefer.

Tomorrow is going to be a long day. After my lesson, I have a presentation to give for my piano pedagogy course. I have been familiarizing myself with the method books I have to compare, and I've planned a way of presenting. She really enjoyed the excessive creativity and cheesiness of my last assignment, so I will go overboard for this one too. I am going to present it in character: I will be a beginner piano method book salesperson who has been referred to her. The presentation will revolve around all of the topics she outlined in the course outline, so I'll basically address each of those concerns one after another.

After the presentation, choir as usual and then teaching a piano lesson and then go to work. After work, I have to rush back to the school for the new music ensemble's debut improvisation performance at the Daily Bread Cafe, 7:30pmish. It will be interesting... I will also be accompanying a singer in some Ives songs as well as playing some of the Kurtag pieces.

And that's enough typing for tonight, I will go and be productive for a while.

I feel guilty.
a) I slept for 12 hours after I went to bed last night
this woulnd't have been terrible, except for
2) I was up working on the computer until 4 am last night....

anyway, that makes for a productive evening.
In my defense, I had been up excessively late every evening this past week and before that, and I had to work at 9am both days this weekend, so sleep has been slim lately.

In other news, I'm excited about Constant Glucose Monitoring advancements. Most of you know that I test my blood sugar throughout the day. Now, they are developing technology that will be a patch that I wear that will wirelessly transmit my glucose readings to a meter. The result is less bleeding, in fact none.. and I will have accurate results that can show exactly how my sugars move up and down throughout the day. The problem is that it will be costly and not covered by pharmacare, and it needs FDA approval... so it's not going to be quickly, but Im excited nonetheless.

Now, back to work!

I feel good. I shall try and be of few words, but my piece was played today.
A few people had laughed when they heard the title, but I believe they repented once they heard the piece. One of my friends actually appologized for her misunderstanding.
I read the program notes/explanation of the piece before Diane played it - I was so nervous, but I don't think I did too badly. I was worried about being overly emotional during or after the performance, but I held myself together.
Diane played a very convincing and powerful performance, and we got a few people ovating in standing position too. I heard nothing but positive feedback from everyone I talked to. Diane's teacher pointed out that the response we got from the audience was above and beyond the normal of what can be expected from a student audience: They were silent and actually involved in the performance.
A number of people mentioned how emotionally moving it was for them, and that means so much; to know that my intentions were felt and effective.
At this point, I can only hope that I will find a way to have my ensemble piece be as effective in presenting the concept of the piece.
Orchestration test didn't go so well... I guessed on a few definitions... it's so frustrating when you recall reading a word and making an effort to remember that word, but then completely blanking out on the context of it. I didn't quite finish the last question - an orchestration of a string orchestra segment into pitched percussion... but there were a lot of people who didn't realize there had been a fourth page.... I'm assuming he will probably be adding some marks to everyone's grade as was the case with the first test.

Yestereve was delightful, though the day was long.
During the day, I had worked my noram 9-5 ballet pianoing. I came home ate dindin and then took a short 20 minute nap. I had falled just enough asleep to wake up to see that my clock said 9pm..AH! I needed to leave the house just after 7pm to make it early for the 8pm play we were going to see. Luckily the clock lied to me.. mostly because I was confused at the time change, and set my clock an hour in the wrong direction.
This story has a happy ending, because I was perfectly on time and all that.
The play was absolutely delightful. I laughed quite a bit. One thing I'm a little unclear about....
One of the characters had the same designer shoes as me... you know, the fancy velcro ones... Anyway, the thing was that the particular character was nowhere near as popular or cool as someone who wears my shoes should be. Are they trying to insinuate something about my shoes?!? I don't understand!
After that, I practiced at the school for exactly one hour. I got done exactly what I wanted; I got all of the sections of the Haydn Rondo memorized at a reasonable tempo. I ran through it afterwards from start to end, but there were some minor areas of undertaintly in terms of which section/chord came next, so that is the next step. Considering I got the whole movement memorized in 3-50 bar segments between last night and the night before, I'm not worried about security. After I practice it today sometime, it should be secure enough in the memory to play it for my lesson, and it will be stellar by thursday. That's the theory; as long as it's good enough for David to not cancel my half-jury I'm happy, and I'm reasonably certain that that will be the outcome.
After practicing, I went to Amy from school's house. She and the other people I had gone to the play, plus a few more were there playing boardgames and having a delightful time. We played this game called "What the Fuck". Basically, it asks random questions that can be incredibly revealing about the person answering.. or mildly retarded. The only problem was that no matter how hard you think about the questions, the majority of them involved things that would not actually ever come into reality. Anyway, the game was a great deal of fun.
Today I played for a Ballet Workshop which was interesting, even though it started at bloody 9am on a Sunday morning. Gah, 2 early mornings in a row, YUCK!
On the to-do list today are quite a few things. I have to figure out if there is a dance jam tonight, maybe I'll just go and see if there is one, if there isn't then I'll go straight to the school and practice. I also need to get some serious work done on this ensemble piece, as the deadline is coming up.
I need to finish writing the melodic segments... thats really the only thing left that will take thinking about. Once I have the fragment, its a matter of transposing it into all the applicable keys and then formatting it into as small as space as possible and then plugging it into the right place on the parts. I have it all organized in photoshop, so it's all good.
OOH OOH, I have good news about my recital. I officially have a dancer who is willing and excited to be part of my recital. I work with her at the ballet and she is wonderful. This is very exciting and we're both looking forward to starting rehearsals.

I had been worrying a bit about my piece being performed on Monday. Not about the performer, she is great and I'm glad that she's working on it. I was worried about the effectiveness of the piece. What would happen if I spent so much time working on such a personal piece and people were completely unaffected by it. That would be terrible.
Today Diane's teacher stopped me and asked if I heard about the masterclass. I hadn't. I didn't even know that she was playing it there. The the teacher informed me that Diane played it there and it had everyone moved to tears.
It was not my intention to write incredibly depressing music, but I couldn't have asked for a better compliment to know that my music was that moving.
It is also incredibly reassuring to know that my pianist is that comfortable with the music and had prepared it to that level.

worst lesson ever.
not during, but after I actually felt myself having to hold back tears. I just wanted to lock myself in a practice room and work ont he bastard Haydn piece I butchered in my lesson, but the only room openw as the one across from my teacher's studio... and that wasn't going to happen. I was getting frustrated and it was not good. Eventually I found a room and I was less physically emotional. I was calmer, but my mind was in a bit of a flurry.
Luckily I remained fairl on task with practicing, but I kept wondering to what degree my teacher was right.... 'have I really not developed any tenacity or perseverance since I've been in school?'
I felt angry and guilty that I had even done a lesson today since I knew it was going to be bad.
The stupidest thing was that I tried to play it from memory today. I was totally not prepared for that.... it was actually the first time I had tried to play the whole thing without the music.... it's just it had been feeling more and more comfortable and I had been practicing sections without music for a bit now...
Anyway, the moral is that i wasn't prepared and I chose to present that to my teacher in a lesson. He wants me to focus solely on that piece between now and the Jury...the good thing being that it gives me the license to focus just on that. well and the ensemble piece I'm composing and on the rest of application stuff, oh and the new music ensemble performances coming up and the diabetes dinner I'm playing at, and assignments and whatever else I'm forgetting...
Speaking of assignments, I should get around to doing that orchestration thingy for tomorrow... yay!

silly day

holy poop today was long.
I woke up early to drive my parents to work.... more realistically I had a periodontist appointment at 8:30. It was good, the estimate on cost was what I expected... eek.
Next I had to 'drop off' passport applications for my parents... they neglected to inform me that this would take at least an hour and a half of my life standing in one of those horrendously long lines with a bunch of people who equally hate being there....
Then I went to U of W to order transcripts. They will be prepared on the 20th of Nov.
Then I went to U of M for transcripts. The Financial aid people were clueless as to the SSHRC scholarship that i wanted to ask about... so after being sent 2 other places, I ended up at Grad studies and still didn't get any definate answers. more on that later...
I ordered my transcripts at UM and they will be ready for tomorrow.
ANyway... so this SSHRC scholarship is fairly important- 17.5 thousand dollars in graduate student funding. enough for me to not have to worry about living while i'm studying.... this also means that I can afford to go to whichever school will accept me.... or that I can move out even if I have to stay in the Peg(provided that I get the scholarship) The moral of the story is that I missed the deadline because the notice wasn't posted, and I only found out about the schoarhip a short while ago. I got a phone call returned to me later in the day from the lady in Grad Studies who organizes the scholarhips.... Long Story Short, if I can get everything together for her in a day or two, she'll allow my application!! After fretting and working hard today, Igot my paperwork done, BUT I still need 2 letters of reference and a departmental appraisal.... I feel bad about rushing my profs, but I think they will understand...
I really hope that things go smoothly so that I can apply for this, I will kick myself and others ifI'm too late.
I practiced tonight, but all I've touched all week has beent he Haydn.. whcih is the piece for my Jury, so David will haev to understand that applications are coming and that my piece isn't done.. therefore I have priorities. I'm going to try to have the whole sonata in a state of memorizationish for my lesson, but I have accompanying to do tomorrow inght..... which is the other major distraction from my practicing..... having to learn 6 pieces in a week for an audition... but I won't complain.... only to David in my lesson so he'll understand why I don't have more lesson rep.

So reading week is shaping up to be an exciting time. To start it off, wedding in Las Vegas for a few days. This should be great fun AND I plan on making quite a bit of money at the casino...
Then I am going to a conference in Toronto for Diabetic Youth Advocacy. I remember mentioning about wanting to go to the international conference... but they picked someone else out of the Canadian applicants, but this one in Toronto should also be fun, though somewhat less exotic.
Now, if anyone out there is interested in going to Las Vegas, consider yourself invited! There are a lot of package deals (flight and hotel) which are quite a bit cheaper when booked for 2-people... so it could benefit both of us. Air and Hotel would probably be around 5-600$!!! Also, the wedding promisses to be a good time, and I will need a date anyway(although from what I hear, Las Vegas has no shortage of escorts...).
I realize that I probably won't hear anything back about this, BUT I want to make sure noone is going to be sitting all alone on reading week with nothing to do....
I'm starting to feel the stress that this month is going to mean for me. Scholarship applications and finishing up my portfolio of McGill application and the little things like getting transcripts and details about letters of reference to teachers. Luckily, I think I read the application deadline for UBC wrong, so I have an extra few weeks to get that ready.. and that one requires an extra piece... which is actuall possible with the extra time! yay! Nevertheless, I started that application procedure tonight, so all will be well!

grrrr
so, no cavities at my appointment, and very little plaque and/or tartar if any.
so in theory.. I had a good dentist appointment, right?!?
NOT!
Apparently there's a reason the dentist always tells you to only use a soft brush - apparently it is possible to brush away more than just the filth that covers your teeth....
Apparently I brushed away a few millimeters of my gums- gum recession.
The dentist recommended me to a periodontist because I should have skin grafts done to replace the gum. Otherwise, the roots of some teeth are exposed and prone to cavities because the root doesn't have enamel on it like the body of the tooth does.
I've done some looking aroud on the internet and I do want to have it done, BUT my dad is retired as of Jan 1, so I need to get it done STAT to make use of his dental insurance.. cause I doubt that UMSU dental covers that....
SO I got a lecture about how to brush and how I have to find the happy medium between not brushing well and overzealous brushing....

On the other hand... the last remaining Adult tooth to come in to my mouth has travelled a long way since 2004. We compared the x-ray from then to now and the tooth is in such a different position!! At present it is a functioning tooth which is much better than the gaping hole that I had when I was 18(when my baby one was yanked) or the various positions of stump that was protruding over these past 5 years.

I saw this cartoon on the internet and just had to share it with you all.
Every once in a while, I'll be talking to a friend that reads my blog, and I find myself being frustrated that they haven't read the post that I just put up 15 minutes before....
I need a kick in the but every once in a while to remind me that I actually do have to participate in the real world...





I feel silly, I still haven't actually written, well barely any of the actual music for this ensemble piece. I'm getting more detailed in the conceptual ideas of what musical content-ish that I want, but few actual notes have been written. For example:
I know that I want the Basson line to have jumps of large intervals and incorporate chromatic spurts with those leaps and that it should have a spastic sort of character, BUT does it matter what those intervals are, or where those chromatic segments lie?!?
alas, I have been doing some sketching of the shapes of what I'm looking for, but nothing specific yet, I need to figure out whether I'm going to use tonality or not, or even if individual lines should have favoured pitches, regardless of the other parts....
These will be the issues to be talked about at tomorrow's lesson.

Cinderella was wonderful. And the company was wonderful as well, I went with Olivia and Chris and Brendan. Apparently all three guys were Olivia's dates.... meh, thats fine and dandy. We went for dinner before which was nice, albeit quite rushed.
After the performance, I gave Brendan a ride home cause I went to practice. It was intensely productive, I learned the parts of the Haydn Finale that I hadn't yet touched... and today they are up to the same speed as the rest of the movement. I also learned 3 of the harder bars of the Liszt piece, not fast enough, but at least they are in the fingers.
I never got ahold of David to sign my forms for friday, BUT I emailed them to him so he could look at them this weekend, and he edited the letter part of it and approved the program, so now he just has to sign it. I have the form filled out and the cheques made out, so it's almost set!
Tonight is a dance jam. I hope there are actually people there... I can't wait to ask some of the dancers about their willingness to participate in my recital... I suppose that could be a barrier to overcome if none of the dancers are willing.... Oh well, I refuse to recognize that as a possibility.

Sadness - my Polish piano friend from the ballet has carpel tunnel syndrome and she said her fingers went numb tonight after playing for 16 counts.... She said she's been to physio and she's trying to do exercises.. otherwise she might have to have surgery. It's quite unfortunate, she is quite a fine pianist (russian school trained) and ballet class is her only source of income. I really hope there is some positive outcome that can happen.
Unfortunately, there are these risks when you rely so heavily on some part of your body for work. I wonder if there is worker's compensation for this situation... I'll be interested to hear what happens.
Tomorrow night I'm going to the ballet "Cinderella", a modern adaptation of the classic fairytale. I saw it when it premiered a few years back, and I understand that it is even better this time around.
Update - grad school applications are underway, well the McGill one is at least. I also talked to my composition teacher from last year as well as my piano teacher about getting letters of reference. I know they are both highly supportive of me, and plus my former composition teacher did his PhD at UBC, so his endorsement of me might carry some extra weight.. I hope... Once I have all my applications underway, I have to go to the school and request transcripts to be sent to those schools. Oh, yes, and the big thing is that I have to have a portfolio put together!!!.... eeek.
Also of importance, I have the things ready for my recital to be booked. I just need to get the sheet signed by David and then give them money for deposits. I reeeeally want to get it done on monday so I know I have my date and I don;t have to worry about it after that.... only preparation and practice practice practice.

Wow, does time ever fly by...

I was shocked to read that November is Diabetes Month.. not because I forgot that there was such a thing, rather I couldn't believe that it had been a whole year since I wrote about it on my blog last year.... It really doesn't seem like that long ago... but alas it was.

Reminder- I am an insulin dependant diabetic. With the proper control and maintenance, I can live a long and healthy life.. but there's just all those pesky little things that get in the way - AKA life!
I read on the internet the other day that this is the best time in history to have diabetes. It goes without saying that diabetes management keeps improving, so it is always the best time to be diabetic provided you are comparing to the past. But he had a point:
-Our knowledge about metabolism and the effect of insulin on the body is getting better all the time.
-There is a lot of excitement in the field of islet transplant and stemcell research which has shown some success so far and a lot of promise.
-With all the self-help and mumbly going on these days, there is a major shift towards healthy living (which is appearing as a necessity for a continent of unhealthy overweight people) which can help a lot for everyone, especially diabetics and their control.
-With blogs becoming more popular than ever, it is becoming easier to find out how other diabetics manage and survive AND maintain a life that isn't completely overrun by needles and bloodglucose testing.

All of these are great things and they create an exciting world to live in. As always, Diabetes month is prompting me to take better control and improve myself so that diabetes will have less impact on the rest my life.

Anyway, with that, I wish everyone a Happy Diabetes Month!